Prayer for whom?

Prayer for whom? and for whom for what?
Before I have been helped so much... and so much was given
Now learning to give... not even to give back
You bloody beggar... good at taking
Every day - today - every day learning how good it is
how good it is to ...
give back

Nothing much... just do your job
learning to give back
not that you are doing some great things

others bless you
from their accepting
the little things, little little things
you have to
humbly
put to them and offer to their benevolent appreciation, likings and usage

every day... feel it feel it and feel it
give give give

what is it to be given?
nothing much
nothing much more than who you are
be me
be
be
enjoy being
sleep be
eat be
love be
be be
smile, joy appreciate every second
of pain and of joy
burn them all
i will be always be

now may that be possible should i still need and depend on so much of this help I got to start with?
may i? may i not?
can i still be like the kid with the parents asking for help?
how thankful will i be?
will i forget?
will i act upon it?

act - act - act
upon what?
act upon what ask the blur one - the one willing not to see that
in asking there is less giving
in taking there is less offering
in depending there is what? there is love
in reliance there is what? there is nonchalance... there is less risk and no
responsibility

Taking responsibility
TAKING RESPONSIBILITY
what does that mean?
facing which risk?
Not knowing - not seeing
facing the pain... and loving it as the teacher, the blind man guiding our steps from boulder to boulder, the cane hurting the contours... until the contours fade away, revealing the space there is
space
position
stand and standing
contentment
satisfaction and balance

The adequat response to the touch of the cane
to the footprint of the steps
to the whip and caresses of things... Oh cruel things
you teach us and
we thank you for it
though we damn you before and will damn you again
forgive our pangs, we forget our pain
forgive us things
your are the One
we will follow you and may be  -
may be - one day -
One day will become
part of you
part of you things
and may be - may be - one day - somethintg
something will follow
in our suit
 will follow
something