It is a painful process. Redefining the way you are living... Who you are... How can you redefine who you are. For me it all hangs somewhere, where I lost touch. Which references I have to say who I am. This only thing I know is: I am determined and I have some aspirations. The rest...? I am successful? Am i a businessman? Am I this or that? I lost touch...

Remains the ways we wish to conduct our lives. How much do we like to work? Again, it seems a silly question. For me I always enjoyed working... there would always be one or another... what seems relevant instead, is the level of responsibility we are willing to take in whatever we do... From responsibility, come struggle and challenges. Without responsibility what is life? In fact I am discovering that what we call adult life is nothing but an exposure to responsibilities ... in many forms: family, parents, work to start with...

Now from that, I cannot see any opposition between childhood and adulthood - except of course that a child has a limited ability to take responsibility. In fact, it seems a good training for teenagers:... finding ways to take responsibility. What else could define a difference between child and adults: playing? surely not - we all love playing. It is just our time management that allos less of it. Relationship? except sexe issues - which today are quickly revisited considering the early age at which Youth start having relationships including sexual relationship - i do not see any major dichotomy between ages... We learn that real friendship is rare if not impossible - does it exist in fact? we experience various degree of dependance, based on needs or pleasure... and/or based on something possibly higher that Aristotle called virtue. In fact Youth are very idealistic and often cherish this type of relationships. It is commonly the adults who manage to ternish these. Many movies have exemplified this theme.

I am obviously still fantasizing about Childhood. It seems I will never forgive the adults of what I - since early - perceived as insensitivity, grossness and sheer stupidity.